I hate Tuesday

The most dreaded day of the week for me is Tuesday. Tuesday represents separation, loneliness and despair. This is the day of the week that I fear above any other. It's the day that causes me the most sorrow and pain. It is the day that temporarily defines my well being. Tuesday is like a horror film that is played once a week and still scares the hell out of me. I try to do my best to avoid this day, but it stares me in the face as soon as I wake and stays with me the entire day. I hate Tuesday's because this is the day that I must give me children back. It is the day my life changes over and over again. I regret having to deal with this day, but my regret and despair makes no difference at all. Tuesday returns each week to inflict the pain of being separated from my kids. After several years of Tuesday's, I am still not able to overcome the pain it has on my mind and body. It is the one thing that I have not been able to overcome from my divorce. I hate Tuesday.

One of the hardest parts of Tuesday is realizing that I will not come home to my children for at least four days. That is the way my divorce schedule was written. Tuesday is the realization that any physical contact with my children will be taken away. I will have to rely on other communication methods to stay connected. This day will require me to talk on the phone, email or other non-personal activity. I have a hard time with this type of communication because all it does is stir up my emotions even more. So, I usually wait until they contact me because the pain is much to great and I feel as if I am violating some sort of unwritten divorce rule. I hate Tuesday.

Tuesday make me realize just how much I love and need my children. I have a great relationship with them not because I am some great father, but because I want them to know how much they are a part of my life even though I have limited contact with them. This day brings out the worst in me and makes me want to be a even better Father so they when I do get them back, They will want to spend" our time" together. I hate Tuesday.

All divorce people have their own day of the week that causes them the pain of separation. We all know that it will never end yet we still can't deal with it no matter how much time has passed. Tuesday is our day for failure, because a failure in our marriages is what has cause this day. I believe Tuesday is set aside to remind all of divorce people that breaking up a family should be the last possible choice or you will be left with the constant pain of this day. I hate Tuesday

Please realize that there is a group of us that go through pain each and every Tuesday. We have been given a life sentence with pain and regret. Don't let Tuesday happen to you. Make every day a special day with your family. Please work out your marital problems not matter how hard it is. Spend as much time with your children as possible, Forget about making money, working long hours and being away from your family. Work as hard as you can on the most important part of life...family. Don't let Tuesday enter your life because Tuesday will forever be a bad day. Don't wait, do it now and you will be able to avoid the hardest day of the week for the rest of your life. I hate Tuesday.